Sometimes we overthink so much that we trick ourselves out of our spot, out of our dreams, etc. And sometimes we use self-doubt and self-sabotaging as an excuse to not go out and get the things we want!

We get so caught up in the what ifs and the possibilities of things not working out the first time rather than putting our trust in God. We not only get in our own way, we get in His way, and we sometimes block our own blessings (or at least prolong its fruition)! 

I remember when I first graduated college #GoOwls & I still wasn’t sure what I wanted to do with my life … well, nah, I KNEW I wanted to be a lawyer. But instead of just applying to law school, I thought of every easier route. Anything and everything BUT take the LSAT and fill out that law school application. Lol.

But I did, however, eventually take the LSAT. I don’t remember what my score was … but whatever it was, I thought it was way too low to get into law school. And I told myself that a school would never accept me with that score.  (see, tricking myself outta my dream) So what did I do instead of retaking the LSAT or applying to law school anyway? 

I applied to graduate school to get my masters in social work. Why? Because the application was a lot easier than the law school application! And because I was planning to apply to the same university that I attended for undergrad, I knew I was a shoe in! Plus the application was way too simple! So I was like cool, SAY LESS. I can get in without even trying (again, tricking myself off my path) — ok but wait, so social work wasn’t THAT far off for me. I took many sociology classes during my undergrad and I actually probably would have been a great social worker. It just wasn’t MY path — But anyway … when I say I started that program and QUICKLY discovered that I was NOT supposed to be there! I hated every moment of it! I’m still mad at myself for doing that! It was such a waste of money!! 

Needless to say, I ended up applying for a leave of absence. I knew that I didn’t belong in that program! The classes were cool and interesting, we even had an opportunity to go to Tallahassee for Lobby Day, but I just … my heart wasn’t in it, so I couldn’t enjoy it! 

Long story short, I ended up taking a year off, working different jobs that had nothing to do with my degree … some good money here, good money there, bad experiences here, good experiences there, etc. etc. etc. 

I eventually said to myself I should at least be working at a place that is at the very least related to my degree. FYI, I majored in criminal justice. But I knew I didn’t want to be a police officer, and I ruled out working in the jail, and I knew I didn’t want to do this or that, blah blah blah! BUT you know what I DID KNOW? I KNEW I wanted to go to law school – but again, I was doing everything but walking in my purpose. But at some point, enough was enough! I had to at least step out on faith and TRY! 

So, I ended up retaking the LSAT! And I decided I was going to apply for a job at the courthouse in the meantime. My thought process was that it would be a stepping stone. I would put myself in close proximity to other lawyers, be able to network, and get some experience working behind the scenes. And if all else fails with the LSAT score or if I didn’t get accepted into law school then I would at least be close enough. 

I got my scores back and whatever the score was, it was only 3 or 4 points higher than my original score. And what did I do? Tried to trick myself off the course again. “Maybe I won’t apply … at least I’m working at the courthouse …”

But thankfully, the people I worked with encouraged me to “not get stuck there!” I thank God for A LOT of people at the Broward County Clerk of Courts! Many of them had a hand in lifting me up and encouraging me to STEP OUT ON FAITH and apply to law school. They BELIEVED in me and had FAITH in me, when I couldn’t find the courage to do it for myself. 

So … I decided I wasn’t going to retake the LSAT but instead take what little faith I had and press my luck with applying to law school with the scores I had. EVEN THOUGH I had sooooo much doubt about getting in, I applied to 3 schools …

And between my inner thoughts and some outside noise of the world (because let’s be real, OTHER PEOPLE will try to trick you out your spot too – and shoot, do it better than you), I was CONFIDENT I WAS NOT getting in! Lol.

BUT GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got into ALL 3 schools and I ended up having to CHOOSE! 

I was so busy getting in MY OWN way that I almost tricked myself out of fulfilling my dream and walking in my purpose! 

But won’t He do it?!

Now … even though I took a few detours, God’s destination for me didn’t change. He kept steering me in a certain direction, and despite my own actions to go off course, every turn I made landed me right back to the same place. 

All in all, I hope you find solace on your journeys of stepping out on faith – however that looks for you – and know that what is for YOU will never miss you. Most importantly, God’s will WILL be done! And your journey may be short, it may be long, but He is always RIGHT ON TIME!

TAKEAWAY: 

1. What is for you will never miss you!

2. BELIEVE & have faith in yourself, all it takes is a mustard seed of faith. 

Now I ain’t even gon hold you … that’s all I be having A LOT of the times, because we not gon talk about how stepping out on faith can be like stepping through the wild wild west lol 

3. GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY!! Sometimes we can be our own worst enemy. 

4. Most importantly, get out of God’s way! 

He doesn’t need your help, and He knows best! There’s no need to question the     path he sets before you, so trust Him, have faith, and just walk … you won’t regret it.